Sometimes glimpses into the past give us a renewed vision for the present; sometimes they are reminders of what we know is true.
Over the past months, I have been culling through a multitude of papers and journals in an attempt at reorganizing. As I have read quotes from the mouths of my little ones, now grown, I have laughed and cried at the memories. Reading journal entries of my own, I am reminded of the joy and the struggle that came from being a new mom and from later years when it was a new phase in the role which I had grown to love and cherish and for which God’s grace was much needed.
In the midst of the cleaning, I found this piece, “Caretaker for the King,” which I wrote 21 years ago when we had just two…a third would come along a year and a half later. I post it on my blog as it is my heart’s desire for it to encourage those yet in the trenches and remind those of us with children now grown (and still growing), that these things remain true.
“I am no one extraordinary per se. Whatever my children become, whoever they be – they are the Lord’s and I am a caretaker for the King.
That’s not to say that being a caretaker is not challenging or unimportant. On the contrary, it is probably one of the most monumental and fulfilling challenges I could ever face. But in the moments when I hold on too tightly or allow my children to become “idols,” I must stop, step back, and refocus. A caretaker needs care as well. For when my heart and eyes are on the King, I am a more effective caretaker in all ways.
God has equipped them, provided each one with talents, gifts, and unique personalities. Our job is to nurture that which He alone has instilled and is still unfolding in their lives. We seek to direct and guide based on the infallible guidance we have received in God’s Word but which will always come through fallible hands – our own. We are to model the King for our children so they will believe what they hear because of what they see.
Mistaken at times. Failing too often. Yes. Living between the now and the not yet, the frustration of my failures is, at times, overwhelming. But God’s grace covers so much! And through our foibles we are able to point the way to a forgiving Savior – the only perfection – and His power to grow us and make us more like Him.
Our two children have been given to us but for a time which oh so rapidly speeds by. I want to redeem the moments, each small in and of themselves, but the multitude of which make up life and are immense. Tyrannized by what “must be done” or by what the world says I deserve to do for myself, I often miss a teachable moment – for them or for myself (sometimes, they are my “teachers”). To use these moments for God’s glory and their good or against God’s will and to their detriment — that decision is important and is made daily. The task is rich and made possible only in Christ’s strength.
How will God use them – their talents, abilities, gifts, personalities, understanding? Will they live them out for His honor? However He may choose, may we be caretakers who encourage them to seek that goal, to press towards it, long for it, strive after it, and achieve all for the glory of the King and for the souls of men! May we teach them well, taking great pleasure and joy in being caretakers of these little lives for the King!”